27 December 2012
I graduated from college with a liberal arts degree w/ 2 minors in business management and english literature.... It feels anticlimactic.
The whole reason I went back to school in the first place was to encourage my daughter. She died before I could finish. Graduating felt hollow; pointless. Last week - April 22, 2108 - I received my Master's degree and started on my PhD research. It still feels like not much of an accomplishment. Don't misunderstand; I am glad to be on this path, but it feels much smaller now. Nothing has been so wonderful to me as being a mother, and nothing has felt so horrible as losing my child. It's odd that my body and inner compass make these comparisons for me - without my consious involvement.