First Year's End
9 Feb 2018
Looking back at the recent holidays, I am thinking about the first holidays without her. I remember that getting through the end of year Holidays was such a relief. I am not sure if I dissociated or what, but I just have a vague memory of sitting around smiling with my family while feeling completely dead inside. At that point, nearly a year after my daughter's death, I only remember the feeling of her not being there. This had nothing to do with my family members or anyone else.